Words...connections and other things....

Words....so many words.  Spoken.  Whispered.  Imagined.  What gives the validity to words?  The authenticity?  The person that speaks them.  If trust is lost....are their meanings the same?

Was hoping today I might find something very profound to write...but instead I think I shall add more to this little morsel of words...since I so love words....conundrum...enigma...complex vs complicated...and then there are the words between two minds...souls that find themselves inspite of all odds.  Conscious...the levels of awareness beyond what most people sense, live, experience.

I do not seem to be finished with this piece...keep coming back to the impact of words.  Simple words indeed.  Ones that leave an impact on me...for what reason I'm not sure.  Is it something I seek within the meaning of those simple words or is it something I want to read into them?

Yes...complex more then complicated.  Conundrum & enigma...perhaps.  On second thought definitely.  In the end...words make up my life...they are in my every thought..a part of my essence...

but words are part of everyone....they just may not understand the true impact...

Taking the high ground...

Taking the high ground is a double edged sword when you are in a no win situation.  Unfortunately, it becomes a damned if you are and damned if your don't situation.  Speak up and explain and get frustrated, not listened to, told you are being a crazy person and the cause of the other person's misfortune.  Perception is a fine line.  I've had the ability to stand aside from myself and look at a situation objectively not subjectively.  And, yet am accused of many things I am not guilty of.  I prefer to not fuel the "fire" of an argument or "discussion" by trying to be rational.

A no win situation that cannot be resolved no matter how much you want it to be.

Sadly...the pain will go away...the loss is still there...but time does heal.

A Saturday Morning...

Each day brings new realizations...new friends...new thoughts...old thought with a new perspective...never ending

But would we want that to end?  Of course not!  Part of all of that is the fact that it means you are learning.  You are expanding (no not your waistline) your mind.  Your spirit.

I want to wake up each day with a fresh perspective.  To see the world and things around me with wonder.  A smile on my face.  A twinkle in my eyes.

Meditation Writing...

I subscribe to this marvelous daily newsletter called Daily OM  put out by Madisyn Taylor (yes she is on Face Book).  Over the years I have enjoyed the daily thoughts and inspirations.  Since I do write yesterdays really struck me as most interesting.  Meditating and letting yourself go and thru creating...but creating without thinking about structure, grammar or spelling....just being free to let the meditation spire you and letting the thoughts in that moment....THAT moment.

As a writer or really as a creative being, I prefer to do my craft of writing alone.  Never have been one to sit in a "writing" group and talk about structure, or if this idea is better or that idea.  Not snobbish, not all into myself but my personal thoughts - again MY personal thoughts - is that I write for me.  If anyone else relates to my written scribblings, then I am so happy but writing like all arts is truly subjective.  For that reason too I chose not to join groups to have my works critiqued.  What I write, photo, create artistically is part of me.  Yes you can improve on technique but I have always found that I perfect my technique on my own not because someone else has told me how to do it.  I look.  I observe.  I read.  I improve.  I go beyond my boundaries.  I prefer the sometimes struggle it takes but then it is still me and this is simply my way of expression...my way of creating.

Namaste

Miraculous Nature...I am a wonderous miracle of life....sham

Sham....sham....sham  this is my mantra for this day.  Today I choose to accept myself.  I choose to be aware of what it is like to simply "be" without self judgement.  I choose to live each moment that I "am" is enough to sustain me forever......

Only a small piece of this mantra, of this awareness.

Today I choose love.

For some reason when I opened up today's meditation it reminded me of change.  How the things that seemed so important a year ago...even six months ago are no longer that important.  But is it change or is it that finally my mind, my spirit, my soul realizes what is important and moved toward that awareness....that acceptance of myself.  Perhaps without the influence of the external pressures.  Sometime to ponder.

I choose to live each moment.  I "am" is enough to sustain me forever...

My Mantra for this day - So Hum (I am)...

I started participating in a 21-day Meditation Challenge....today's meditation was "I am a radiant spiritual being" and the mantra is "So Hum" which means I am.

This meditation session reminded me of my very first attempt at poetry/prose.  It was called "What are you looking for?"  Here is the piece that truly started me writing in earnest.  (footnote:  I did add when this was published in my first Volume of Intimate Evolution:  One Woman's Journey current comments at the end referencing Eat, Pray, Love)  This piece is part of every book that I write.

What are you looking for….

My soul….

Where have you looked?  I have looked in the sky.  I have looked in the earth.  I have looked in the waters.  I have looked in the mountains and the hills.  And, did you find it?  No, I did not.  Look within….

So many years ago I wrote that.  Within the pages between the first page and the last page I wrote my prose and my poetry.  The last page was Have you found your soul?  And the simple answer was, looking back from this moment, profound.  And, it is only now some thirty years later that I understand how profound.  It was there all along and I was too consumed with the search that I failed to understand the true meaning of the answer….

I am my soul

And then I was consumed with raising two children, working, struggling, loving, being alone, being lonely and just existing.  Children grown up, now grandchildren, still working, finding some passions in my life (my artistic side) and still just existing, but starting that search again.

Looking for tranquility, serenity, calmness, peacefulness.  Tired of the drama of life and others…..knowing I was not where I was supposed to be.  Starting to understand that more then I ever have.  Starting to plan to change my environment.  Evidently I was not moving fast enough for the Universe.  I needed a wake up call.  A smack to make me take notice.  Within one year, the Universe had my attention and was taking charge – evidently I was just moving too slowly.

Physical pain beyond belief.  If I did not take care of my body, I would not be able to walk within a very short time.  That solution was hard – back surgery…..screws and bolts in my spine and bone grafts…Do I have your attention now?  Yes, Universe, you do. 

No more working in corporate America!  Do you hear me?  Oh, yes, I hear you.  This is hard for me you know, Universe.  It is not easy for me to still my body and most difficult to still my mind. 

What are you looking for?  I am looking for peace within me - contentment, tranquility, and serenity.  Simplicity in life.  And, have you found it?  I’m looking.  I am reading.  I am searching for that place on earth where I can achieve these things.  Be patient with me.  You had the answer many years ago when you were younger…..why don’t you see it?

I have been reading the book by Elizabeth Gilbert EAT, PRAY, LOVE – I labored thru the first segment “Italy” and am now reading India.  This segment was an epiphany for me.  I started to laugh out loud.

I remembered my early writings and the last page – I am my soul.  All that I search for is within me.  It’s not external.  I have the power to become peaceful, contented, tranquil and serene.  Open my mind and my heart.  Fear not the risk of letting people in. 

I am contentment. 

I am serenity.

I am tranquility.

I am at peace!

I am.

Simplicity in life.

Today I am open to the presence of miracles

That is my manta today....I am open to the presence of miracles...

There are miracles all around us.  Sometimes we just are consumed with life and everything around us instead of being able to see that there are so many miracles surrounding us every moment of our days.

I ponder why we all don't see more miracles each day.  Do we have blinders on?  Do we not feel?  Do we not hear?

Every where I turn there are miracles....namaste